One Of A Kind

sparkley.gifI had a situation, that’s a “SIT-YOU-AY!-SHUN”, recently…and it turned out remarkably. It was a whole “this girl is on fire” result!!!

We have some days when we don’t do so well…and there are others when it’s just “Wow! You can come again!” They said that I sparkle! They said that my charm is effervescent! (I thought that just meant that it can dissolve in liquids?) They said I walk into the room and bring the feel good factor with me. They said I am a key part of “the team” and I always make everyone in a better mood.

sparks2That was just the superiors. The clients have said the most amazing things to me. It’s a long time since I have had so much positive feedback in a role. I have been thanked and praised and had the sweetest compliments. And you know this is why I should always be in a job working with people. Because I love people and somehow, most of them seem to warm to me. Yes, I come across the odd uncrackable nut. I don’t really mind what I do for work…but working with computers, calculators, machinery, food, paint, plants or even animals is just not as rewarding as the smiles on people’s faces when you can make a difference to them.

see sparksThey come in stressed, I send them away glowing! That’s the mission, to bring a little cheer, a little sparkle. I try not to let my thinking slip too far into mediocre or morose. I try to keep seeing blue skies and smelling the roses. I try to see the sparkle in the people I meet and see the sparkle in everyday…even when there are challenges to deal with. Elevated thinking sometimes pays off big time. The mental and emotional energy when you don’t let anything discourage you, you just stay in the “this is going to turn out just fine” zone…is phenomenal.

All is good. No, in fact it is great!!! Don’t stop me now…because I’m having such a good time!

great timeIf you have been reading CRUSHED CARAMEL posts for a while, you may have realized I had challenges in the past. They all centered around the problems with my ex-flatmate and the social media nightmare that exploded because of him. It literally stripped me of confidence and happiness. I was in despair the night I went to that park. I don’t want to think about it, but the crime committed against me that night initially made me very shaky, very scared. That passed, and I was just left feeling bewildered and lost. I had to put a lot of effort into building a sense of purpose back into my life.

sparksWell, since my ex-flatmate has waltzed back into my life (surprise of the century!) my happiness levels are zooming! I feel good about myself. I am me. And I like that! I am letting go of everything that ever drained me, that lowered my spirits…it’s all dissipating. My heart is lifting.

He really seems genuinely fond of me and sincerely regretful of everything that went wrong in the past. He likes me the way I am. Though I feel as if he should have a model or an actress by his side, he wants me to be with him. Pretty marvellous to be loved by someone you thought despised you.

I know they say you should not let someone else dictate your self-esteem…but I never understood what went wrong. It didn’t make any sense. But now that he is opening up and explaining all sorts of things I never knew…I can accept things. I am so much happier about everything.

Anyway…goodnight…it’s way past my bedtime, but I only start work at 2pm tomorrow, so it’s alright. I am sure I’ll be all slept well and sparkly by then!

I Will Always Love You

robin and annie togetherGoldfinch has been wonderful for me. I loved the thirteen months I had with him. I am so grateful that he kept in touch when he went back to Australia…I was so scared he wouldn’t.

Of course losing my apricot was heart-breaking, but at the same time, it’s the first time in my life I have even been close to something so special, so life-changing. I’ll never know what may have been if I had not have lost my apricot. It was absolutely wonderful to go out to Australia to be with him during the summer (Australia’s winter). I was extremely happy while I was out there with him. Happier than I have been at any other time in the past four years. I did not want it to end.

robin and annabelleIf I have not made it clear during the seventeen months that I have been blogging, Goldfinch has been the best thing in my life since I met him.

However, I think I always knew I wasn’t necessarily the best thing in his life. That has not stopped him from being absolutely gorgeous to me in every way. But at the end of the day, despite all of the loveliness he has shown to me, he has more than once referred to his hope I would meet someone else here in England, someone who would love me, love my cooking and baking, love my long caramel blonde hair, my feminine dress style, my generous bosom, my down-to-earth, roll up my sleeves and work hard spirit and all of my little ways.

dean and annie5He is happy to think of me as happy. It still feels strange. It feels strange because I have loved being in love with Goldfinch. It’s not something I have ever ever wanted to end.

But even if I loved him with every single fiber of my being, much as he would enjoy it, much as he would be wonderful to me…it’s not necessarily how he would feel in return. He would show love, he would feel love, but not the kind of love that cries out, “be mine, live with me, be my exclusive lover”. There is no handle on the outside of the human heart. You can only do your very best to love in earnest and hope that the person you love will come to the conclusion they want you beside them as they walk through life.

Life is a funny old thing isn’t it…and love, a really weird and wonderful thing. I am sure I will be thinking everything over for a long long time to come. I will always be ready to tell all of the wonderful memories that Goldfinch has left me with. And, I do think, that if Goldfinch actually wanted to share forever with me, then what has happened in the past couple of weeks would never have happened. I will always love Goldfinch you know!

I’ll Take The Train

unrestrainable.jpgIt’s been all steam ahead today! I spent the afternoon showing a certain someone the posts from other bloggers in today’s SONG-LYRIC-SUNDAY. He loved it!!! Oh my goodness. It is impossible to restrain him!

I was absolutely adamant that he is not allowed to create a WordPress account just so he can like and comment on all the other SONG-LYRIC-POSTS. I am super scared of how indiscreet he has always been with social media. He is such a kid with his phone!

We had lots of fun this weekend. It’s really good. A month ago, I could never have imagined it. Life is so crackers sometimes isn’t it!!!

I have been waiting to see all of the songs featured by everyone who takes part today.  I had yet another song choice up my sleeve. But I wanted to wait to see if it had been featured by anyone else. Well…it doesn’t look like it so far. So I am going for it! I am not going to post a fourth though. That really would be too much!

the actHe and me had a dance together to this song earlier today, “Cuanto Le Gusta” from the iconic Carmen Miranda. Did I ever tell you about how I had to tour performing this song with three other women? It was a charity thing! We were very popular. Thank goodness he doesn’t have the video from that act…yet! I would not put him past it to seek it out. I still have the fruity hat we had made! I have two versions for you to enjoy, neither of which am I in!

As I am sure you all know by now, Jim Adams, aka Newepicauthor, the creator of A Unique Title For Me, is hosting SONG-LYRIC-SUNDAY and this week he has chosen the theme: TRAIN SONGS…and I didn’t want to leave this one out! Sunday nights should always finish with a little party- don’t you think!!

Cuanto la gusta, la gusta, la gusta, la gusta, la gusta, la gusta, la gusta
Cuanto la gusta, la gusta, la gusta, la gusta, la gusta, la gusta
We gotta get goin’, where are we goin’, what are we gonna do?
We’re on our way to somewhere, the three of us and you
What’ll we see there, who will be there, what’ll be the big surprise?
There may be caballeros with dark and flashing eyes
We’re on our way (we’re on our way)
Pack up your pack (pack up your pack)
And if we stay (and if we stay)
We won’t come back (we won’t come back)
How can we go, we haven’t got a dime?
But we’re goin’ and we’re gonna have a happy time
Cuanto la gusta, la gusta, la gusta, la gusta, la gusta, la gusta, la gusta
Cuanto la gusta, la gusta, la gusta, la gusta, la gusta, la gusta
Now someone said they’d just come back from somewhere
A friend of mine that I don’t even know
He said there’s lots of fun if we can get there
If that’s the case, that’s the place, the place we want to go
We gotta get goin’, where we’re goin’, what are we gonna do?
We’re on our way to somewhere, the three of us and you
What’ll we see there, who will be there, what’ll be the big surprise?
There may be caballeros with dark and flashing eyes
I’ll take the train (I’ll take the train)
You take a boat (well I take the boat)
I’ll take a plane (I’ll take the plane)
You ride the goat (well I ride the goat)
Oh, we don’t care, we’ll either walk or climb
But we’ll get there and we’re gonna have a happy time
Cuanto la gusta, la gusta, la gusta, la gusta, la gusta, la gusta, la gusta
Cuanto la gusta, la gusta, la gusta, la gusta, la gusta, la gusta
Someone said he just came back from somewhere
And picked a few petunias in the snow
He told me that it’s very close to nowhere
If that’s the case, that’s the place, the place we want to go
We gotta get goin’, where we’re goin’, what are we gonna see?
We’re off to see somebody who’s on his way to me
Gonna go my way, you go your way, wanna make a little bet?
We’ll all meet in the country, they haven’t found us yet
We’re on our way (we’re on our way)
Pack up your pack (pack up your pack)
And if we stay (and if we stay)
We won’t come back (we won’t come back)
How can we go, we haven’t got a dime?
But we’re goin’ and we’re gonna have a happy time
Yes, we’re goin’ and we’re gonna have a happy, happy, happy, happy, happy
Cuanto la gusta, la gusta, la gusta
Yes, we’re gonna have a happy time

Written by: Gabriel Ruiz and Ray Gilbert

Chug-a Chug-a Motion Like A Railway Train

steam trainAre you choo choo-ing and chug-chugging along with the rest of us today I wonder? We are! He and me! He is loving SONG-LYRIC-SUNDAY!

I am going to admit that when I first saw Jim’s theme for today, I thought there was only one possible song that I could choose for this theme. This is a song that exposes my music roots. It may explain why I have become a karaoke queen and am always keen to jump up on the dancefloor and have fun.

This turns out to be a brilliant theme, and it’s all thanks to Jim Adams, aka Newepicauthor, the creator of A Unique Title For Me, who is hosting SONG-LYRIC-SUNDAY and this week he has chosen the theme: TRAIN SONGS

faveWhen I was a very little girl, the first song I became obsessed with was the Kylie Minogue recording of “The Loco Motion”. I loved that song! A friend of my brother’s recorded it onto a cassette tape for me and taught me the dance moves to The Loco-Motion. Then my Dad bought a Kylie Minogue album for me. I just loved it. Don’t laugh! I was only six or seven at the time! It was my very first favourite song.

When I was over in Australia, I am sure Goldfinch just loved it that everytime I was looking through his music collection and he asked me if there was anything I wanted to listen to, I would always answer, “I’m still wondering where you keep your Kylie Minogue CDs”. He made it quite clear about how he felt about Kylie making an appearance in his music collection! Love him! Not everyone can share the outstanding taste in music that Melody Finch has.

Everybody’s doin’ a brand new dance now
(C’mon baby do the loco-motion)
I know you’ll get to like it
If you give it a chance now
(C’mon baby do the loco-motion)
My little baby sister can do it with ease
It’s easier than learning your a b c’s
So come on, come on,
Do the loco-motion with me

You gotta swing your hips now
Come on baby, jump up, hmmm jump back
Oh well I think you got the knack

Now that you can do it
Let’s make a chain now
(C’mon baby do the loco-motion)
Chug-a chug-a motion like a railway train now
(C’mon baby do the loco-motion)
Do it nice and easy now don’t lose control
A little bit of rhythm and a lot of soul
So come on, come on,
Do the loco-motion with me
You gotta swing your hips now
Come on, come on,
Do the loco-motion with me

Chug chug

Move around the floor in a loco-motion
(C’mon baby do the loco-motion)
Do it holding hands if you got the notion
(C’mon baby do the loco-motion)
There’s never been a dance that’s so easy to do
It even makes you happy
When you’re feeling blue
So come on come on do the loco-motion with me
You gotta swing your hips now

Come on, come on,
Do the loco-motion with me
Come on, come on,
Do the loco-motion with me
You gotta swing your hips now

Written By: Gerry Goffin and  Carole King


Jimmy Heard The Day He Caught The Train

olde traJim Adams, aka Newepicauthor, the creator of A Unique Title For Me, is hosting SONG-LYRIC-SUNDAY and this week he has chosen the theme: TRAIN SONGS

It turns out there are many! And they are great songs. Today is going to be a superb SONG-LYRIC-SUNDAY! I had several brilliant songs in mind. In fact, the day is young, we will see how many of the songs I thought of are featured today…I might find I can’t resist posting again later!

ocsI was so tempted to choose The Monkees…but they are sure to be a favourite choice today I am sure of it. So instead I have chosen another Britpop favourite.

This song is from a band I have featured before, Ocean Colour Scene. I loved their sound. The first time I saw them they were a support act for Oasis. I love love love this song! It is one of my summer playlist songs. I really hope you enjoy it, because it always makes me smile.

Last night (I am typing on Saturday before I schedule my post to be published on Sunday), I caught the train to a town on the edge of London…and somebody was there in his car. He drove us to a little cottage he has hired. We are having fun. He is fun, he always has been. His pancakes are awful. They always were. I am going to cook lunch. Nothing special – I ran into the mini supermarket just before I went into the train station, and bought fresh pasta, pesto, garlic ciabatta and some salad, and a salted caramel dessert, which I was sure he would love. He bought the ingredients for the pancakes and he also brought coffee and wine. We are going to argue about who does the dishes later.

I never saw it as the start
It’s more a change of heart
Rapping on the windows, whistling down the chimney pot
Blowing off the dust in the room where I forgot
I laid my plans in solid rock

Stepping through the door like a troubadour, whiling just an hour away
Looking at the trees on the roadside, feeling it’s a holiday
You and I should ride the coast and wind up in our favourite coats just miles away
Roll a number
Write another song like Jimmy heard the day he caught the train

Ohh la la, ohh la la
Ohh la la, ohh la la

He sips another rum and coke
And told a dirty joke
Walking like Groucho, sucking on a number ten
Rolling on the floor with the cigarette burns walked in
I’ll miss the crush and I’m home again

Stepping through the door with the night in store, whiling just an hour away
Step into the sky in the starbright, feeling it’s a brighter day
You and I should ride the coast and wind up in our favourite coats just miles away
Roll a number
Write another song like Jimmy heard the day he caught the train

Ohh la la, ohh la la
Ohh la la, ohh la la

You and I should ride the tracks and find ourselves just wading through tomorrow
And you and I, when we’re coming down
We’re only getting back and you know I feel no sorrow

Ohh la la, ohh la la
Ohh la la, ohh la la

When you find that things are getting wild, don’t you want days like these?
When you find that things are getting wild, don’t you want days like these?
When you find that things are getting wild, don’t you need days like these?
When you find that things are getting wild, don’t you want days like these?

Ohh la la, ohh la la…

Written By: Simon Fowler, Steve Cradock, Oscar Harrison and Damon Minchella

What Have I Done?

So much for taking things slowly! I can’t even make sense of it myself right now, never mind write about it. It’s unbelievable, even to me. In fact I am starting to feel like I am the star of my very own Truman show and that someone is writing the script because this feels like the craziest kind of Hollywood melodrama.

what have i done.jpgWhat have I done? I feel as if my heart has been torn in two. And it’s awful. But at the same time it’s as if a miracle has happened. But it’s terrible on my part.

This is not making any sense is it? And for the writing my thoughts down on WordPress is keeping me sane! I can’t wait to be able to share this with my nearest and dearest.

All I ask is that somebody wonderful, some absolutely stunning woman who is just as beautiful on the inside as outside will go and be the perfect woman for a very special man. I wish him the best woman on the planet, and I think he might like it if she was rich and without any obligations. For I love him very very much and want him to be extremely happy.

robin and annie goodbye

I kind of wish I could have chance to go back to Australia and hold him in my arms and tell him how much I love him. But I think I did try to do that every day I was in Australia during the summer. So I hope he knows. I would never want to hurt him.

I know this is not making complete sense, but a miracle has occurred and I can’t ignore it.

Kristian Has Nominated Me For The Mystery Blogger Award

So much has been happening in my life. It’s all very bizarre and dramatic. I am trying to keep my head cool and not let my heart to go bounding wildly into a whirlwind of nonsensical romantic disillusionment…but…it is so tempting!!!

Back in August, Kristian, the creator of Tales from the mind of Kristian, nominated me for THE MYSTERY BLOGGER AWARD, as you can see from his brilliant post below:


What is the Mystery Blogger Award?

“Mystery Blogger Award” is an award for amazing bloggers with ingenious posts. Their blog not only captivates; it inspires and motivates. They are one of the best out there, and they deserve every recognition they get. This award is also for bloggers who find fun and inspiration in blogging; and they do it with so much love and passion. – Okoto Enigma


  • Put the award logo/image on your blog.
  • List the rules.
  • Thank whoever nominated you and provide a link to their blog – THANK YOU KRISTIAN! SORRY IT IS SO LATE!
  • Mention the creator of the award and provide a link as well.
  • Tell your readers 3 things about yourself.
  • Answer the questions from the blogger that nominated you
  • Nominate 10-20 other bloggers.
  • Ask your nominees any 5 questions of your choice; with one weird or funny question.
  • Share a link to your best posts.

Three Things About Me

Smiling woman getting her hair styled and hair salon.

I have always felt very nervous, quite frightened about going to a hair salon and having strangers wash and cut my hair. It used to move me to tears! I preferred my mum to cut my hair, but when rheumatoid arthritis made it hard for her to hold the scissors I had to go elsewhere. I have a few friends who are hairdressers and if they have time, one of them kindly trims my hair for me. But if I ever have to go to a real salon, I spend the whole time extremely tense. The stylists sometimes ask me questions that I don’t want to answer. In recent years, I have tried to combat this by taking control of the conversation and bombarding them with questions.

smiler 1I do not understand racism, or even nationalism. As far as I am concerned, I am a member of the human family. Whenever I pick up on people having an air of superiority or feeling they are special, or more deserving, on account of where they are born or the shade of their skin…well, I just find those kind of attitudes repugnant. Now that I am being open I will also add, I hear people in western countries moaning about what they don’t have, or that they don’t have as much now as they used to have, and I think to myself, “You have no idea! Let’s uproot you and relocate you where the average wage is around $1 or $2 a day shall we? Once you have returned to your “home-country”, hopefully you will never moan again!” There are some very spoilt people in western lands who take so much for granted.

i cant drawMy brain leans towards maths, physics and chemistry. I am fascinated by geology and marine biology. I do enjoy reading about history and culture, but I find my brain is sorely lacking when it comes to art. Goldfinch loves art. I love that about him. But my brain is so hopeless when it comes to art. I have tried, but I fall back on drawing goofy cartoons because I become so frustrated with my efforts. Algebra, trigonometry any day! Ask me to write a letter, or an essay – easy peasy! But if you ask me to draw a self-portrait, well the paper will be covered with my tears because I don’t seem to be able to move the pencil around the paper to produce anything other than a cartoon character. And I now think that it is a hand-eye-brain coordination thing. I was always deemed good at sports, but that was only because I had so much energy and stamina. I was not great at catching, or aiming. Just furiously energetic and without any fear of tackling the opposing team. But I always had to pass the ball to a team-mate because I had no skills.

One Of My Favourite Posts

bluebellI have a few favourites. I mentioned a couple of my favourites in another award post recently. But this is also very much one of my favourite posts that I like to go back and read over. It is about a memory I have of the very first time I saw bluebells! I was only a little child, and I was up int he woods where we used to play. The whole woodland floor had turned blue. I was enthralled by it!

Hiding In The Shade

Questions From Kristian

If you could be a flavour of Ice Cream which one would you be and why?

I love this question. Of course I am so tempted to say caramel flavour. But I think caramel on it’s own can be a little bit sickly. 

So I think I would be a combination flavour. I think something classy. Either espresso flavour for a little bitterness to contrast with the sweet caramel (no, I am not a bitter person) or pistachio, which is so moreish and delicious. I also love peanut butter ice-cream. Ooooh so hard to choose!

If you could change one thing in history, and only one, what would it be?

adam and eveAnother great question. One that is extremely thought provoking.

There is a huge impulse to say I wish I could change the rebellion of the first two humans against our Creator. The results of human self-rule have been bitterly cruel and grievous. However, I do realize that in the future, both we on earth, and all intelligent creatures in the universe, will look back on this period of history and see it as a judicial precedent for any future disturbance to peace in our universe.

of great interestThere are many unspeakably horrific crimes that have taken place on a huge scale, that mar human history. The crusades, the holocaust, the invasion of other lands by greedy nations. But when I think about it, our history is very important. Our history is going to provide judicial testimony that is going to bring peace to our planet and peace to the entire universe.

What do I mean you may ask? It is clear that our Creator was deeply grieved when the rebellion occurred. He foresaw the outcome, the consequences of human self-rule. He warned that it would result in great suffering. He has only allowed this because he knew he would be able to heal the damage caused and restore the human family and this earth to his original purpose. He determined that the period of human independence would come to an end. He set the date. Nothing will change that. He will not allow human rulership to go on forever. There is a limit to how much damage He will allow.

future1In the meantime, He continued to the accomplishment of His own purpose. He provided His Word which would guide those who sought his rulership. He provided hundreds of prophecies pointing to the appearance of His “sent one” or “Messiah” or “Christ” – who would become the ruler of a government established by our Creator. Christ demonstrated the power he would be given over disease, the weather, and even death. He showed on a very small scale what he would be empowered to perform on a global scale in the future.

He also commanded his followers not to interfere with human rulerships, but not to get involved with them either. Christians are to pay their taxes, obey the law and to be peaceful. While Christians ultimately look to their Creator and the Christ, who has been appointed King of God’s Kingdom, they remember that right now we are under the authority of human rulerships. Human governments are allowed to be there. They provide an element of stability which benefits us.

world.jpgWhy? Because human rulership is on trial. There is already a very checkered history on record. There may have been some who seemed genuine in their motives, but even those who seem noble have had limited success.

How many human governments have been able to ensure that the basic needs (adequate food, healthcare, work and shelter etc.) of all their population were satisfied? How many short-sighted decisions have been made in the name of profit and innovation, which have damaged our environment and have been detrimental to people’s health? How many inhuman atrocities have been committed? How many governments have allowed disgusting economic extremes? Wars, genocide, slavery, oppression and cruelty mar the pages of human history in every corner of our globe.

future2.jpgIf our Creator had continued to intervene to prevent bad things from happening – would it not make people think that human rule is not that bad after all? Our Creator has already recorded his view of the thousands of years of human rulership that he has witnessed. Grossly inadequate, a failure. Some rulers he has seen are highly reprehensible.

However, in the near future there will be events that may seem incomprehensible right now. At the moment, with the ineptness of the current forms of government manifesting itself, it doesn’t seem all that far-fetched that soon governments will give more power and more authority to the United Nations, does it! That is something that was prophesied in the scriptures centuries before the League of Nations and the United Nations were even formed. The reason behind that development and what will happen next is all in the scriptures.

Very soon there will be an issue that will affect everyone on the planet. Are we as individuals eager to have our Creator’s guidance? Or will we choose human self-rule? I find it hard to imagine why anyone who knows anything about history, and anyone who witnesses the events that are soon to take place would choose human rulership. But at the end of the day, we have all individually been dignified with free will and choice. You cannot force someone to love our Creator. That is not what He wants. His rule will be marked by love. He wants His creatures to willingly choose to look too Him for guidance because they love and trust Him.

By the end of a thousand year period of rule under the government established by our Creator, we will be in an even better position to make a whole-hearted choice. During that time the earth will have been restored to the paradise He intended. He will have resurrected those who had died during the thousands of years of human rulership. Disease, old-age, abuse, pollution, war, crime will be distant memories.

paradise7Humans will face another pivotal moment. A decision will be before them once again. Yet again the question of who should rule will be thrown up. The scriptures show this is the final time this issue will need to be answered on such a large scale. It is after that that we can say all things have been restored. There truly will be complete peace throughout the universe.

There will be a vital historical record of everything that happened, how the Creator handled challenges and questions over His rulership. From then on, if anyone in the universe raises the question of authority again, there will be billions of humans on earth who will shout “No!” The question of who should rule will never need to be answered in this way ever again.

future3.jpgYou are worthy, our God, to receive the glory and the honor and the power, because you created all things, and because of your will they came into existence and were created. – Revelation 4:11

What is the greatest advice you’ve ever been given?

Oh my goodness, I have been given so much good advice! How do I pick one thing??? One piece of advice I remember every single day is that kindness is always the right choice. There are so many people at breaking point! If you had any idea how heavy the hearts of some where, or what is going on in their mind…always choose to be kind!


If you could have anything for your last meal, what would you choose?

IMG_20190728_190446I don’t intend to ever stop eating in all honesty. I love variety, so it’s hard to pick favourites because I love new flavours and ingredients.

But there are meals I just never ever tire of. Salad, lasagne, garlic bread would make me very happy any time! Add to it a glass of wine and finish everything off with a very naughty pudding and I will be very happy just before I slip into a food coma and sleep it all off!

If you could be a character in a book, which one would you be?

Hmm…such good questions.

persuasionI think I have a huge soft spot for Anne Elliot in Jane Austen’s “Persuasion“. The first time I read that book, I started to adore her from the first chapter. I did not know Jane Austen’s books at all back then.

I was very anxious about what would happen to Anne Elliot all the way through. I thought that in the latter half of the back, Jane Austen was trying to steer Anne towards a happy-ish ending. But the actual ending knocked my socks off! I wasn’t expecting that at all. And I loved it!

I love happy endings! Especially the type that seem completely impossible, the type you have lost all hope could ever occur!

Life – it is so wonderful! Just think after all the twists and turns in human history, we are going to have the happiest outcome that could possible imagined! Things we thought impossible, the resurrection of all those who have died, the restoration of paradise, life without pain and suffering, universal peace under the loving rulership of a powerful, just wise Creator who loves us and wants us to be happy forever!!!

Questions or My Nominees

  3. IF YOU WERE GOING TO BE A TOURIST IN ENGLAND (if you live in England then imagine you are having a stay-cation) WHERE WOULD YOU LIKE TO VISIT?

My Nominees


Blue Sky Thinker

always.jpgI already know I tend to be very light-hearted, but I learnt something else about how my friends view me this past week. Even during dark times in my life, I have had a tendency to focus on what makes life sparkle.

Somebody told me the other day that I am a “blue sky thinker”. I wasn’t sure what that meant at first. But he said it is very refreshing, so I am taking it as a compliment. Blue is better than orange, or puce – yes puce really is a colour. If you are not sure you could always google it!

Well…I hope you find my “blue-sky thinking” as refreshing as he did, in my SHARE-YOUR-WORLD POST!

Take a peak at the questions from Melanie, the creator of sparksfromacombustiblemind, in her original SHARE-YOUR-WORLD post below:


When was the last time you face palmed?   

ouch.pngI am not really a “face palmer”. I am really struggling to remember doing that at all. I don’t like touching my face, incase I make my skin greasy or ruin my make-up. I do fidget a lot with my hair.

But I think people “face palm” when they are embarrassed – is that correct? Well…I regularly have embarrassing situations occur, only I find I am just not very easily embarrassed these days. I can laugh things off very quickly and move along.

When is censorship warranted?  Ever?

Oh wow…there are so many people spouting out nonsense, I am sometimes surprised it is so easy to start a cult, get voted into political office or become an “influencer” and get pay-outs from retailers and fashion designers for telling people that they should all be wearing puce and studded chokers – ay karumba!

quote8Freedom is a responsibility. People can think and say and do what they want, but they also have to be prepared to accept the consequences. In the privacy of one’s mind, or the relative privacy of one’s household, I think it is healthy to express your thoughts and feelings, in a healthy way.

However, if I build a platform and a sound system, so that people can broadcast their thoughts and feelings to a wider audience, and then a user is irresponsible and belligerent. I might use my free will to remove the platform, and dismantle the sound system, or just not allow that person to use them again.

I know some might cite a sinister side to censorship. The thought of a government, for example, controlling the information resources their population has access to may seem kind of barbaric. I am not going to give my opinion on that as I do not have any political agenda.

censorBut at the same time, I do not object to some kind of regulatory body, assessing how people are handling the responsibility that comes along with the ability to publish and broadcast on an international public domain. The problem is, how do you make sure that regulatory body is politically neutral and unbiased?

When we were younger, we realized that if our phones were confiscated – we had done something bad! Hopefully, we were helped to see why what we had done was of such great concern to our parents. I am not sure people really learn the lesson nowadays – they just grumble about how their rights to freedom of speech have been violated.

mediaI do believe in rules, based on principles. I believe in respect and love. People who promote what is harmful and hate-filled may be relying on laws upholding freedom of speech and thought and freedom of the press etc. There may be a legal framework allowing the publishing or broadcasting of questionable content currently…but not all things legal are necessarily good.

cuckoo.pngIn this world, entangled in complex issues, I understand there are a huge array of opinions and views and beliefs. But I think things are pushing forward to a pivotal point, when fundamental issues will come to the fore, and others pale into insignificance.

With freedom comes responsibility and accountability. Having free will does not mean escaping the consequences, and it does not mean avoiding being held to account for the harm that one has causes. I accept that any fashion designers currently promoting puce as the colour to wear for winter might not like my earlier comments. I willingly accept the consequences. Perhaps I won’t be made welcome at London fashion week at all.

If there were commandments for the modern day world, what should (could, would) some of them be?  Get creative!

Commandments! Ay karumba! I don’t know if these are commandments or my Caramel Cross Code for life. Top of the list is a classic…because it will never fail!























What did you Google last?

resto.jpgOh…what did I google last? I think it was “PUCE WINTER FASHION”….oh, nope, I am wrong. Apparently the last thing I googled was “LA DAME DE PIC” because I have an appointment there soon.

Before that, “BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER”, something I am researching for my long fictional writing project. We are nearly at the end of the Annabelle Riley story! I bet you’re all wondering how long this saga is going to go on for. I just need to make sure it is not too Disney.

Gratitude is an Attitude

annie drinking coffee

I would like to give coffee a mention this week. I have been burning the candle at both ends for the past few weeks. I am so grateful for coffee. Without it I would have been dysfunctional!

I am also thankful for make-up as it has hidden my tired eyes and made me look half-decent.

In addition I would like to express my gratitude for music…I have had a song in my heart everywhere I have been and it has been wonderful. Despite having had a lot going on, Melody Finch is singing and laughing and dancing her way through this wonderful life.



My head is all over the place right now. I am holding back from writing too much about the situation I am in. But it is beyond belief. I am going to have to wait until it is the right time. I’m scared at the moment, in case it all goes wrong. But until then I could go stir crazy with the strong feelings whirling around my head.

guiltyYears ago I read “The Buccaneers” by Edith Wharton. I had a complete dilemma of conscience when reading Nan’s story. The main character Annabelle was trapped in a loveless marriage. Then wonderful Guy – that was his actual name – came along. I had to stop reading it because I wouldn’t allow myself to sympathise with her.

Haven’t I tried to live a simple life? I have not toyed with anyone else. I have been open and loyal. Something crazy has happened. Something so incredible. For so many reasons I should be thrilled, absolutely jumping for joy. But for reasons you would understand if I could tell you, there is a shadow on my heart. The shadow of guilt. I should feel guilty.

I am not married. Technically, I am single. But my heart has been devoted to a gorgeous Australian, who lives 10,100 miles away, and who has been telling me he wanted me to meet someone new and fall on love. I just never listened to him. I didn’t want to meet someone else and fall in love. This situation that I am in has caught me by surprise, well, more than that – this has completely shocked the living daylights out of me! So although he might say everything is fine, my heart is not believing that.

car kiss.jpgI have not been trapped in a loveless relationship, quite the opposite. I love Goldfinch so very much! Something very very unexpected has knocked me off my feet. My heart is doing somersaults. My long distance lover has been hoping that I would meet someone here in England. I am sure he didn’t expect the man who has been silent for over four years, and now has crashed back into my life, to be that someone.

I still feel as if my heart is has been torn in two. And at the moment one half is celebrating an incredible miracle and trying to provoke wild exuberant joy…and the other half is condemning me.