Glad To Be Sad

I think I have mentioned before that when I met Goldfinch he only expected to be here for three or four months. In the end I had thirteen and a half months with him.

I replied to a comment from the lovely Jay-lyn, the creator of The Wonderful and Wacky World of One Single Mom yesterday. She is so lovely and supportive of what I am going through with my emotional ups and downs about the departure of Goldfinch.

I just want to make it clear, I had a long time to think about what was best for both Goldfinch and I. I had an amazing year with him. I have been deeply happy. But I had a lot of factors to think about. I knew he wanted to go home to Australia. I also know he has a lot of energy for life and there are lots of things he wants to do. I knew my limitations. I was mostly concerned with what was best for him. I am happy with my decision.

Yes, I am sad, as I have mentioned, and that will last for some time. Yes, I miss him, and will go on missing him. But the thing is – I am happy. I am happy to have had a wonderful year with him. I am happy he is home in Adelaide, Australia.

So when I write about Goldfinch…and I am sure there will be more posts, don’t worry about me. Don’t be overly sad about me. I am writing to celebrate the wonderful year I have had with him. Writing about him is a way of honouring him and putting on public record that he has brought a lot of wonderful into my life. The sadness at being without him – that’s entirely natural. However, thank you for all of your support and wonderful comments! You are all so sweet!

I remembered a line to a song that I think expresses my feelings best:

❤ “…I even feel glad,

just to be sad,

thinking of you…” ❤