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Come Let Me Love You…Let Me Give My Life To You


You can have no idea the relief and utter gladness that has poured into my heart since my last post.

Goldfinch (and I know he is a bit fed up hearing about my ex-flatmate) has had a very good reason for not replying to any of my calls, voice mails and text messages.  I had a gift here waiting for his next visit, and I wondered if I should post it to him with a sorry card.  But now, I am going to keep it here, for I hope I will soon be wrapped up in his arms again.


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He has not seen any of them.  I completely forgot he was going away.

I had just done some food shopping for me and my landlady and bought myself treats so I could comfort eat my way out of my sadness, when I remembered I have a work number for him, a mobile phone number that belongs to a work phone.  He answered the phone straight away.  I was so relieved to hear his voice!  I was sobbing on the phone because of the huge surge of relief and joy that I felt.

He is away and has been since I started believing that he was angry with me because I expressed my dissatisfaction over his opinions of Jack.

woman cryingI thought he was angry.  He said of course he is not.  I have cried and cried this week, thinking I had hurt him and he was refusing to speak to me.  Oh my goodness, what is he going to think when he sees all my heart broken messages when he gets back?

I am not going to worry about that right now.  I am just going to enjoy the ecstasy of love and relief when you find the man you are in love with is just as wonderful as you imagined he was.  Yippppppeeeeeee!

You are either going to love or hate this song… at the right time I love it.  I love it today, because it is gorgeous and is everything I feel towards that wonderful man – Goldfinch!  My hero!


I Need A…

Just about to go and do a bit of shopping and a few errands for my landlady…and some of my own shopping and errands…multitasking and trying to ensure I work my way through my long “to-do” list.

I am heavy hearted…you may know why if you have seen my recent posts.

I want Goldfinch so much, I want to feel his arms around me.  I am weeping floods of tears about the possibility of not spending time with him before he goes back to Australia.

Love ain’t no game.  It can hurt like crazy.  It is hurting now.  I should have kept Jack in his box and high up on the shelf and not let him get under Goldfinch’s skin.

distraught.jpgThe awfulness of the situation with Jack makes me feel paralysed. I don’t know what to do. I tried everything with Jack and it made things worse. So I am frightened to try anything with Goldfinch. I don’t want him to hate me.

But, I must press on, I have so much to do.  Being busy is a good thing…plenty of rest, plenty of work, and my best friends have promised me something to cheer me up.  We are going to go out at the weekend and unashamedly sing our hearts out – London, you have been warned, KARAOKE QUEEN is making a visit to a venue near you this coming weekend.  Get ready!

I would love to have chance to sing this song.  As soon as I saw the Word Of The Day, I started singing it: