My Adventurer

One of the two wonderful men in my life is currently overseas. He was already overseas of course. But now he is overseas somewhere else.

I miss him so much. I still think of him every day and at the moment, I am imagining his adventures in a paradisaic part of the planet. I wish I was tagging along with him. I would slow him down though. He always wanted to be free. I don’t blame him for not wanting to trade this kind of freedom.

I Tried

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I was so happy when I was out in Australia in the summer with wonderful Goldfinch. When I first met him…I knew, I just knew he wanted to be free. Nothing has changed. I would have loved to be his permanently. But he never expressed that he wanted that. I think he wanted to keep his freedom and not become “yoked” to someone.

I had to love him. Not what I wanted him to be. I did. And I do. I love him very much. I hope I have made sure he feels free. I tried to be what he seemed to want me to be. I hope he understands that if he ever needed me, I would try even harder. Sometimes freedom becomes less important. Love and loyalty become more important.

But you can’t force anyone to be what you want them to be. It’s up to an individual to choose whether they want to try to be what they may not naturally be inclined to be. It’s up to an individual to decide to love or not to love. My decision was and still is to love. I wanted to be the loving, loyal, life-long lover and partner. I wasn’t interested in “freedom” in the shape of a no commitment relationship.

My feelings are what they are. Jack knows how I feel about Goldfinch. He also knows that if Goldfinch had wanted it, I would have devoted myself to him. Jack seems relieved that Goldfinch did not want that.

I Get Around

I am sure I have said this before, but in London, you truly do not need a car.  In fact a car is a nuisance in London.  Where to park it, the crazy traffic, the risk of crime…a car is a downright liability here.  In addition to the fact we have a pretty incredible public transport system.  I can travel for over an hour on the bus for £1.50, which is peanuts. Bus stops at the end of my road every 4-6 minutes at rush hour, and every 8-10 minutes at off-peak times.

Elsewhere in England it is really not the same.  A car is a huge advantage, a huge leap of freedom.

I loved the feeling of freedom that passing my driving test gave me!!!  Since then I have clocked up many thousands of miles.  I have travelled the length and breadth of the country on voluntary projects and also on pleasure trips to spend time with wonderful friends I had made.

To me it was an incredible breath of fresh air to be able to break out of the town I had grown up in, using a set of wheels  to escape.

Then I discovered the car stereo…I remember compiling my own CD of travel tunes and the very first song I chose to get me in the mood for the road ahead was the song I have chosen for Day Two of the Three Day Lyric Challenge.  I would turn this song up as soon as I hit the motorway (highway/freeway) and sing at the top of my voice…FREEDOM!

The Three Day Lyrical Challenge

I was nominated…by none other than talesfromthemindofkristian  talesfromthemindofkristian  who has already established himself as a man of superb musical taste as you can see from his post below:

https://talesfromthemindofkristian.wordpress.com/2018/08/17/3-day-lyric-quiz-day-3-respect/

The Rules:

1 Thank the person who nominated you – I think I forgot to thank you properly yesterday Kristian, I was trying to publish my post before I left the house early in the morning…so THANK YOU!
2 Share one of your favourite song/lyrics one at a time for three days.
3 Nominate three other bloggers each day. 

Round round get around
I get around
Yeah
Get around round round I get around
I get around
Get around round round I get around
From town to town
Get around round round I get around
I’m a real cool head
Get around round round I get around
I’m makin’ real good bread

I’m gettin’ bugged driving up and down this same old strip
I gotta finda new place where the kids are hip

My buddies and me are getting real well known
Yeah, the bad guys know us and they leave us alone

I get around
Get around round round I get around
From town to town
Get around round round I get around
I’m a real cool head
Get around round round I get around
I’m makin’ real good bread
Get around round round I get around
I get around
Round
Get around round round oooo
Wah wa ooo
Wah wa ooo
Wah wa ooo

We always take my car cause it’s never been beat
And we’ve never missed yet with the girls we meet

None of the guys go steady cause it wouldn’t be right
To leave their best girl home on a Saturday night

I get around
Get around round round I get around
From town to town
Get around round round I get around
I’m a real cool head
Get around round round I get around
I’m makin’ real good bread
Get around round round I get around
I get around
Round
Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah

Round round get around
I get around
Yeah
Get around round round I get around
Get around round round I get around
Wah wa ooo
Get around round round I get around
Oooo ooo ooo
Get around round round I get around
Ahh ooo ooo
Get around round round I get around
Ahh ooo ooo
Get around round round I get around
Ahh ooo ooo

 

And….my nominations for this challenge are:

      
Lexiboyce