The first time Goldfinch came to visit me in London…
…the morning after the night before, I woke up and made my way into the kitchen and made him poached eggs with Parma ham and hollandaise sauce served on toasted English muffins.
If he wasn’t sure before, he now knew, he had a good thing going. And so began a very lovely year or so of me planning meals to prepare for gorgeous Goldfinch and he giving me endlessly wonderful days and nights.
I have always loved how much he likes to hold me. I did not realize how much I love to be held, embraced, hugged. It is a wonderful place to be – in his arms.
I am going to miss Goldfinch…! I think you already know that.
He has started doing this adorable face rubbing thing. The first time I noticed it, I am convinced he was fast asleep. He had his arms wrapped tightly around me and he was rubbing his face into mine.
I sleep very heavily and am completely out for the count once my eyes are closed. I have a tendency to roll away from him over onto my side of the bed and often lie on my stomach. Throughout the night he will keep waking up and turning over so he can grab me again and wrap me up in his arms.
Most of the time I am too zonked to even respond. But I love that he does that.
My head pain starts to hurt a lot during the night. It becomes more and more intense the longer I am horizontal. But he is there with gentle kisses and makes me feel so happy even when I am in pain.
Then in the morning he is there to gently wake me up in the loveliest ways, before I can make it out of bed and get my pain-killers. I always have head pain in the morning, but somehow Goldfinch takes all the sting out of the pain.
Once my pain killers kick in and I feel a bit more with it, I love to show him how glad and grateful I am to have him with me. He is so utterly gorgeous and I am so overjoyed I have had this wonderful wonderful man in my life, keeping me warm and holding me close.
Yup – I am going to miss him!