I am starting to really look forward to a day off. When you are tired, you start to find mornings hard. Some of it might be physical tiredness, but it is more the emotional tiredness I am aware of. Just starting to feel I am ready to shut myself away from the whole world for a while.
But in the meantime I am sipping my coffee in hopes the caffeine will have kicked in before it’s time to shower.
Then I will go and collect the dark sourdough loaf reserved for me by the bakery. I was so pleased to find I had two slices of bread left when I woke up this morning. I didn’t feel like eating granola again. I am losing my appetite at the moment.
We all start to be affected in different ways when we are in touch with illness and death. It does tend to get at you in little ways even it is something you are used to because of your profession. For me, it’s slightly chipping away at my emotional energy, my enthusiasm and my appetite. But I am aware of it. I know it will be good for me to spend my day off doing some things that will invigorate my heart and desire to enjoy life.
I was even more pleased this morning to find I still had half a jar of St Dalfour Apple and Cinnamon preserve. I spread some of it on my toasted sourdough. It is absolutely beautiful. It was a perfect start to the day.
Better go now. Another day of work ahead.
Caramel 
be well and take care of yourself too
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Thanks Beth.
I was struggling about a week ago. But I also started my period a week ago, which I think may have made it a bit harder on me physically and emotionally.
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Stay safe Mel.
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❤ So far…going strong. I need my sleep though! ❤
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That is true. Sleep is a must.
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It is hard, it does start to chip away at your spirit. I work in the mental health field and it has been tough. So many youth are with high anxiety and a few attempted suicides. You have to find strength within for sure than to grab groceries is no longer so easy and it now needs planning!!! I encourage you to try some of my meditation blogs as the gratitude entries are so refreshing and the meditation does definitely help!!
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So far, I have managed to keep going working six days a week (sometimes seven for the past three months. But last week I was feeling tired and a bit weepy. Five deaths in as many days. When I started my period it reminded me I am human and there will be times when it is ok to admit I am tired and that is ok. My family and friends are all being an amazing support though. It’s so good to feel how much love is around me.
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