I have felt the course of my orbit shift within the past few months. I have begun to orbit around “Jack”. He and I have been spending a lot of time together. We talk on the phone too and send countless text messages and e-mails.
I have neglected virtually all my other friends nearby. I have been to see friends who have not been well, or who have said they were feeling low. But almost other social events I have pulled out of in order to be with Jack.
I guess it’s mainly because it has seemed of great importance to make the most of this time we have before we tell everyone. As soon as the news breaks, pressure will come. Maybe it won’t be as bad as I am anticipating – it’s just I remember how awful it was before. So it has seemed very important to be with him and to know him inside and out.
It’s so good to spend time alone with Jack. I do feel as if we are letting each other in. Learning to rely on each other more and more.
“Jack” and I have walked in the woods frequently these past couple of months. Lots of walking, talking, holding hands, laughing, a few tears from me on occasion and some kisses – very nice kisses.
Jack was friendly enough. He said something along the lines of “Hiya mate, it’s polite to ask first if you want to take a photo.” Anyway, at first I thought the lad was a little bit aggressive in his response. But Jack was his usual charismatic self. He chatted with him and asked about the dogs and some other questions. I wasn’t listening properly, I felt a bit intimidated by everyone staring. I think he was asking them things like where they were from and what they did for work.
So Jack tried to make a bit of a deal and asked if the guy would delete the photo he just took, then Jack would be in photos with this guy and whoever else in the group. Jack is always willing to pose for photos. It is ingrained in him. He is not in the least camera shy, and he is comfortable with this aspect of the fame his work has brought him. To me, it’s all weird. To Jack – it’s just life. He gets on with it. The young man seemed very reluctant to delete the photo of Jack and me holding hands. I think that the chap did delete the photos, because next moment, Jack was posing for selfies with the group.
Anyway, while this exchange was going on, I saw another lad in the same group step my way with his phone in his hand. I was convinced he was going to take a photo of me. So, I swing around and put my hood up and pulled my scarf up over my face. Was I over-reacting? He was a total stranger! What right did he have to take a photo of me? Plus, I always look terrible in photos, I am incredibly unphotogenic. What might he have done with that photo? I have no idea, but I was not going to cooperate with him.
Jack probably did not realize I couldn’t see the floor because I ended up tripping and would have ended up in the mud if it wasn’t for him supporting my weight in his arms. We must have looked so stupid.
It has been another great day of music for SONG-LYRIC-SUNDAY. A huge variety of songs, artists and genres. I reckon that SONG-LYRIC-SUNDAY is the best musical menagerie on WordPress.
I was working with a young woman the other day who asked me so many personal questions, I told her I felt like I was being interrogated. Which made her laugh. One of the questions she asked was “Do you have children?” to which I replied that I don’t. Then she asked my age. I told her and she expressed surprise. She said I looked ten years younger because my face is so girly. I replied, “That’s probably because I don’t have any children.” Which made her laugh even more. Anyway, she is now my favourite colleague. Ten years younger hey! You can interrogate me any time honey!
Today is one of those days when all I want to do is listen to music. Jack wanted to sleep a little longer, so I nipped down to the local supermarket as I had hardly any food in. I am going to do some cooking and bake him a cake this afternoon. We’ll go for a walk when it’s darker outside. Less chance of hassle.
I find “fandom” a scary thing. My friend seemed a bit obsessed with Taylor. She calls herself a “Swiftie”. Fans can be so scary. (Jack’s fans – some of them are uber-scary as far as I remember their trolling of me.) But I acknowledged that some of Taylor Swift’s songs were great and I am sure she deserves credit as a very talented lady. In a recent post, I mentioned a performance at an award show where she lit up the stage performing a selection of her songs. Well, she missed this one! It;s called Wildest Dreams and it’s an epic song in it’s own right.
My song choice is another song I love love love. Listen to the first few bars and that rip-roar sound of the guitar will tell you exactly why! I love the music, more than I love the lyrics. They could be singing about the price of bread for all I care. It is a track that makes me want to get up and swing my hair around and dance like I have ants in my pants.
Caramel 