Looming

crysWhat exactly is looming in Caramel’s mind? Thank you for asking. Two things are looming in my mind.

One is work. I have a meeting with my boss tomorrow. It was rescheduled. I was so ill on the original day of the meeting, my boss said it would be better to wait until I was better because there were some important things she needed to discuss. Ever since, this meeting has been looming in my mind. I feel as if I am about to be tried, convicted, executed all in one swoop. If you never read another post from me again, you will know what has happened. I’m a gonna!

The other thing looming in my mind is the next post that is scheduled to be published. It is called “Careless”.

anniversaryWithin this next part of my Annabelle Riley story, something occurs that is a huge blow to Annabelle. Although Annabelle’s story is a love story, and a life story – her emotional/mental health is another big theme throughout the book. I have referred to her long time habit of self-harming. I have shied away from any graphic descriptions because I did not want to disturb anyone.

If you have been following her story, you will know that some lovely things have happened to her lately. But in this next part, we will discover that Annabelle has still not really dealt properly with her mental health issues, and when confronted with an unexpected situation, Annabelle will be tested.

I am really nervous about this part of her story. I wrote it when I was really ill, and I have read it over and over again. I strongly felt the story had to take this turn. But I am in nervous knots about it.

Anyway…if I survive the meeting with my boss (no guarantees) I hope that you see why I felt my lovely character Annabelle needed to come under scrutiny with an unexpected twist in her story.

11 thoughts on “Looming

    1. No executionion – phew!!
      But a lot of feedback! And I have to be prepared to take on more responsibility in the future. I like to keep paid work simple, I prefer mundane work so I can just earn my bread and butter and then put my heart into all the work I do as a volunteer. So when the employer who pays me says they have plans for me – it’s not really welcome news. But if they try to pile on too much, I can always look for another job, or fall back on self-employed like cleaning, cooking and gardening.
      I have struggled with this for years with paid employers – trying to get them to understand that I want to stay right at the bottom of the ladder.

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