Missing You

I am a funny creature. It is a really good job he is 10,100 miles away. Or this would be a problem! A serious problem!!!

What eases my conscience is that I have told “Jack” that I have been very much in love with Goldfinch and still miss him enormously. Jack is being very good about it. He seems to understand that it is hard to let go. He says those memories with Goldfinch are very special. (And he is right, they are. They are part of me now.) But Jack says he and I are going to build lots of special memories too.

helloAt the moment there is something about birds. I see birds sitting on the bird-feeder in the garden pecking at peanuts. I see pigeons perched on roof-tops. I see a little red-breasted robin that seems to perch on the wall so it can greet me whenever I arrive home at my little nest, I always say “hello” when I pass it you know.

But every bird I see makes me think of Goldfinch. I do wish he was here. But it is probably a very good thing he is not. Or else my life would be in a real pickle.

Where Can You Be?

Kristina TrainI think I have mentioned in the past how much I like variety in all things. That is one of the reasons I would not call myself a “fan” of any one artist or group. I don’t really want to listen to an entire album, I will listen to one or two tracks by the same singer/musician and then it is time for something new.

But every now and then I hear something that makes me want to hear a lot more of the same recording artist/es. That is exactly what happened when I first heard the voice of the artist I wanted to feature in this post. I could not get enough of her voice! I searched for more and more of her tracks so that I could hear her singing.

where can you be.jpgI still think her melodic tones bring me more pleasure than any other modern singer. None of that high-pitched candyfloss squeaky singing that makes grown women sound as if they are twelve. She sings like a real woman!

By now, you will have noticed that Jim Adams, aka Newepicauthor, the creator of A Unique Title For Me, is hosting SONG-LYRIC-SUNDAY and this week he has chosen the theme: LOST/FOUND/HIDE/SEEK

If you are wondering to yourself – “whose is that heavenly voice?” then let me introduce you to one of my favourite vocalists – the marvellous Katrina Train! Oh she could sing to me any day and make me weak at the knees.

You very likely know the song. Jackie Wilson and Aretha Franklin both recorded it. I don’t actually know who wrote the song, Google has turned up no answers to that question. But, I have to admit, it’s Kristina’s recording that sends chills down my spine.

wanderingThe lyrics are very moving. If you have ever felt that loss of love, as if a rift has formed with the person you are in love with, and now are feeling lost, completely lost in life because the center of your orbit has vanished…well, this is one of those songs that sums up that feeling so well!

This is a song I have sang to myself many times…and usually about Jack. I am not singing it any more. But that doesn’t take away from what a favourite song it is of mine, and I have a feeling I shall go on loving to listen to Kristina Train’s voice for a long time to come. I have not heard any new material from her for a while though. I only ask myself…”where can she be? where can she be? oh darling, where can she be?”


I’m wandering
Been moving to and fro
Just wandering
With no place to go
Since I lost you, lost you
All I ever do
Is be wandering
‘Til I wander back to you


Oh I’m wishing
Been yearning for your kiss
Oh and I’ve been missing
The warmth of your caress
Since I lost you, I’ve lost you
All I ever do
Is be wandering, wandering
Wandering, wandering
I’ll be wandering, ’til I wander back to you

I look on every corner, down every dismal street
Are you there? Are you there? Oh darling I repeat
I visit all familiar places, there’s no one there but me
Where can you be? Where can you be? Oh darling where can you be?

Oh I’m praying
Your touch for me has grown
Oh and I’m saying
For before it’s not been known
I love you, I love you
And all I ever do
Is be wandering, crying
Wandering, wandering
I’ll be wandering
‘Til I wander, ’til I wander back to you
Yeah, oh yeah
I’m gonna be wandering
‘Till I wander back to you
Yeah, yeah
Oh wandering back to you


Human Hot Water Bottles

There is no point even trying to pretend anymore. Summer is over! Autumn has ruled here in England for over a month – rain and grey skies, sometimes blustery breezes. The temperature has fluctuated. But it is starting to become more and more chilly!

So now is the time to make extra effort to stay warm. The writing prompt from Sarah Elizabeth Moore gives me the chance to think about the best ways to warm up on a chilly Autumn night.

out and aboutI have been out with Jack walking in autumnal woodland, my wellingtons and my Scarpa boots are plastered with mud. But it has been a pleasure! Nothing quite like the feeling of a warm hand holding yours and lots of lovely hugs.

I have noticed I have had to pull out warmer clothing from under my bed and swap the contents of my wardrobe. I have jumpers and woollen scarves all ready to be used through the next few months, and my big thick winter coats too.

keep warm.jpgJack and I have eaten a lot of ready meals recently, because we have often been staying away somewhere, so we have nipped into the supermarket to find something we could heat up in the microwave or oven. But when he has stayed here at my little nest, I cooked and I baked! And I am looking forward to doing much more of that for Jack. Cold weather means lovely warming stews, casseroles and pies!

We both really like spicy food. What better way to warm up on a chilly autumn night that  a big bowl of vegetarian chilli? I made some gingery biscuits for Jack a couple of days ago. I used to bake cookies all the time when we lived together, and for some reason I haven’t made biscuits for the past four years (I’ve done plenty of other baking), so it was really nice to do something that reminds me so much of our time together. You might remember that one of my first ever posts was all about the strain between Jack and I when we were living together:

Peanut-Butter Cookies (That’s The Way The Cookie Crumbled)

It all seems so strange now. It’s hard to imagine a time when we were ever awkward and uneasy with each other.

snug.pngAfter a walk in the woods, followed by a nice warm meal, there is nothing nicer than relaxing for the rest of the evening together. We have had the chance for plenty of talking. We have been doing lots of normal boring things (it’s only boring to do normal things if you don’t do other interesting things. But normal things are very welcome when your mind and body are normally occupied with all sorts of other activity). It feels so good to chillax together, lots of talk, a little music, a little television, cards, games, more talking. So nice!

warmThe perfect end to a cold day is to get an early night. Nothing like a cosy bed with lots of covers to help you fall into a deep and sweet sleep. I would recommend making sure you have a gorgeous human hot water bottle to snuggle up to.

Of course the very best way to warm up on a chilli autumn night also includes things you can only do with your beloved…but as this is supposed to be a family friendly blog, I won’t go into any detail. But Jack is making sure I stay very warm this autumn.


This post wa my response to the writing prompt from Sarah Elizabeth Moore:



I Keep Trying To Find My Way

perfect memory.jpgJim Adams, aka Newepicauthor, the creator of A Unique Title For Me, is hosting SONG-LYRIC-SUNDAY and this week he has chosen the theme: LOST/FOUND/HIDE/SEEK

Music stirs memories…I think I meant to say that last week in my post about the song that is special to Jack and I. Well…this week I am going to share other memories…those that I dwelt on all summer after my wonderful trip to Australia.

As soon as I saw today’s theme, I thought of a hundred songs!!! Don’t worry, I am not going to post one hundred songs, although I do have a second song in mind that I might publish later, depending on whether anyone else features it.

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERABut to start my Sunday on a wonderful note, I have chosen, not the first song I thought of, not my favourite song, but a song that has a memory that I want to share with you today. One of my favourite memories in fact from my trip to Australia this past summer (Australia’s winter).

I think I mentioned that when I was in Australia, I would look through the CDs that Goldfinch has – he has a lot of music! – and when he asked me what I liked the look of I would reply “oh I am still looking for your Kylie Minogue CDs”. And he would give me that cute look…you know the “am I going to have to put you over my knee?” look!!! I’ll stop there!

dgAnyway, one day, he came home with a new CD, which he said he picked out thinking of me. He loaded the disc into his stereo and took my hands to dance with me – aaaaah sigh! We did dance quite a lot together while I was out there. Such wonderful happy memories.

As soon as he started to play the music, the voice seemed familiar, although I did not know the first track. It was “Innocent Eyes”, an album from Delta Goodrem. I confess I did not know anything about her. But Goldfinch duly informed me that she is Australian. I looked at the songs on the back and immediately saw that Track Number 5 “Lost Without You” was a song I had listened to over and over after Goldfinch left England to return to Australia. The lyrics so perfectly expressed just how I felt trying to live life without Goldfinch. Aaaaaah sigh!

goldfinch and moi.gifWell…we danced together for a few of her songs…but I was particularly enlivened by Track 5, and swung around him singing the words of the chorus straight to him, hoping he understood that the song was obviously written about me and the way I feel for him!

When looking for a video…I found a full-length American version which sounds quite different from the one that was in the charts here in the UK. The top video is a short section of the song the way I am used to hearing it. But the American version is almost as good.


I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes
You might say a little righteous and too proud
I just want to find a way to compromise
Cos I believe that we can work things out

I thought I had all the answers never giving in
But baby since you’ve gone I admit that I was wrong

All I know is I’m lost without you I’m not gonna lie
How am I going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we’ll never be together and we ended with goodbye don’t know what I’d do …I’m
lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I’m lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I’m lost without you

How am I ever gonna get rid of these blues
Baby I’m so lonely all the time
Everywhere I go I get so confused
You’re the only thing that’s on my mind

Oh my beds so cold at night and I miss you more each day
Only you can make it right no I’m not too proud to say

All I know is I’m lost without you I’m not gonna lie
How am I going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we’ll never be together and we ended with goodbye don’t know what I’d do …I’m
lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I’m lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I’m lost without you

If I could only hold you now and make the pain just go away
Can’t stop the tears from running down my face

All I know is I’m lost without you I’m not gonna lie
How am I going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we’ll never be together and we ended with goodbye don’t know what I’d do …I’m
lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I’m lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I’m lost without you

Written By: Bridget Benenate and Matthew Gerrard

Thank You For Two Wonderful Years

IMG_20180722_123051 (2)Two years ago…on the last Saturday in October (2017)…the night the clocks go back one hour, something rather spectacular happened:


Thank you for two amazing years!

Thank you for bringing love and joy to my heart!

Thank you for helping scars heal.

Jack seems to be in love with me. But part of me is Goldfinch. And he will always be. I mentioned to Goldfinch in the letter I sent him…I loved him and everyone in his life past and present. There was no jealousy, there couldn’t be. To me, they helped make him who he is today – the man I have loved loving for the past two years. Jack is not allowed to be jealous of Goldfinch! I am only who I am today, because I had two wonderful years with Goldfinch.

I am so glad that I made those decisions on that Saturday night in October 2017. I decided I was going to trust…and I did. I decided I wanted love in my life again…and I made the right choice. I am so glad that I met Goldfinch and have had such wonderful times with him!

Thank you Goldfinch!

A Whole Week Of Splitting Headaches

ouch1.jpgIt’s been a busy week, and next week will be even busier! But I am keeping up the pace. I had a good telling off from a colleague though. I have had bigger badder headaches, since that wooden roof bopped me on the nose. I have been struggling all week.

Jack wanted to take me to hospital, and I said no, downplaying the pain I was in. But at work the other day, I was in a very bad state. my colleague told me to go straight to A&E. Not what I wanted to hear. Anyway, after spending hours waiting, I had another scan, which said the same thing as usual…I have some unusual swellings in my head. I keep telling them it’s because I am so brainy. Sleep, water, ibuprofen was the recommendation. Same old advice.

On a more cheerful note, here is my SHARE-YOUR-WORLD post. The weekly questions for SHARE-YOUR-WORLD are hatched up by the wonderful Melanie, creator of sparksfromacombustiblemind. You can read Melanie’s original post below:


Questions Of The Day

Had any good conversations with yourself lately? Did you listen to yourself? And how’d that work out for you?

chatI don’t have conversations with myself outloud. But sometimes, in my mind, I laugh at myself. Or tell myself off.

Last week, I told myself off for answering back at someone. I was so cross with myself. It was such a petty little thing. I thought I was right, and I spoke my mind. But there was no need for me to do so. The fact is there are sometimes ten (or a hundred) different “right” ways to handle something. That was an occasion when I should have just been more respectful, instead of trying to press a point. I was annoyed with myself for impetuously insisting I was right. How I regretted that!

contempate.pngI guess in my head, I do sometimes reason out situations I have been in and then try to decide if I should have done something differently. Especially when I feel guilty, and feel it is worthwhile apologising or acknowledging my error. Dont worry, I don’t brew over things to my detriment. I am not the type to beat myself up over things indefinitely. I just like to sort things out in my head. I like to do a quick playback and decide if I should have done things differently. It’s just mental gardening – weeding, pruning the not so good, and cultivating positive refreshing, upbuilding thoughts and feelings.

I want to be a nice person and not let harsh traits ever develop. So I ask myself, why on earth did you just do that? Was that really kind? Do you think the other person feels better now? Or do you think they may have felt irritated by what I did? I try to think about how to be a kinder, lovelier person. I want to be like my parents who seem to always be so naturally lovely.

And I have noticed something interesting. People may or may not automatically forgive you when you irritate them – there are no guarantees. However, when you go back to someone and say sorry and express regret, they are almost always touched. People appreciate that kind of humility, it is endearing.

What is gravity and how does it work?

How much time do we have to answer this question? Scientists are still studying gravity and trying to understand this remarkable “feature” of our universe.

gravMost famously, Isaac Newton and Albert Einstein have published conclusions, which form the foundation for our understanding of gravity.

Initially, Newton’s equations said that all objects, small or large, exert a pull on one another. Basically, the bigger the object, the stronger the pull. The nearer the object, the stronger the pull. I hope I am not over-simplifying this.

A lot more has been published since then on the subject of gravity. This is still a fascinating subject that scientists do not fully understand. But the discoveries of both Newton and Einstein demonstrate that laws govern the movements of objects in our universe. It appears that gravity acts as a bond that sort of holds the universe together.

Although we may not understand it fully, we have a lot to be grateful for when it comes to gravity. Without gravity we simply could not exist! Here is some of what gravity does:

  • grav1.gifGravity keeps our sun together, sustaining its nuclear reactions. Without the sun, we would not have the heat and light life on earth depends on.
  • Gravity keeps our spinning earth in orbit around the sun​. This means we don’t go flying off into outer space. It also means we have daytime, nighttime, and beautiful seasons.
  • Earth’s atmosphere is held in place by gravity, including the air we breathe which is essential to life.
  • The pull of gravity from the moon and the sun generates regular tides that help circulate the waters of our oceans.

What is more real – Mind or Matter?

at that level.jpg“More real”…I have never thought about that concept. I find this question interesting because it helps to illustrate that there are things we cannot necessarily see, or understand, that are very real and have a huge effect.

I guess we just accept matter for what it is…stuff. Energy has been converted into matter or “stuff”. Everything in our material universe is made of matter. It is the building blocks of stars, trees, creatures. Matter can take on many different forms, gaseous, liquid or solid objects. There are a colossal amount of combinations of elements (all matter) that form complex and incredible objects and creatures. Our brains are made of matter.

mond.jpgWhat is the mind? I guess, when we refer to the mind,  we are thinking of something that is more than a combination of chemical components. The mind, the intelligent mind, aware of it’s existence and environment, able to reason, contemplate and wonder, is in some ways a miracle.

I have read that scientists, after studying all of the mechanics of the human brain, are in some ways baffled as to how that enormous jump can be made to such astonishing consciousness and awareness. The human mind is truly remarkable. Of course one thing that the mind can do though is conjure up what is not real. It can imagine and dream, either for good or for bad.

Should a vegetarian (or vegan) eat animal crackers?

cansWell…here is a question, since most of us would be rightly horrified at the thought of cannibalism, should we be eating gingerbread men?

When I was a little girl I discovered that the Cheese and Onion crisps Mum bought were not vegetarian. But the Roast Chicken flavour and the Steak and Onion flavour crisps were vegetarian. I also noticed at some stage that Chicken Pot Noodles were vegetarian, as they contained soya, not real chicken. But as a little one, I preferred not to eat the meaty flavours because they turned my stomach. Instead I chose the non-vegetarian Cheese and Onion crisps.

Nowadays there are all sorts of vegetarian products designed to look and taste like meat. I occasionally eat them, especially if someone has bought them and cooked them for me. Although I prefer my veggies and love vegetable creations, it’s interesting to have a variety of flavours and textures. It is so long since I ate meat (I was six when I became vegetarian) I am not sure what meat tastes like really.

Animal crackers – well, I have never tried them. But, I don’t see any reason why a vegetarian shouldn’t eat them. I only know what animal crackers are because of that wonderful Shirley Temple song.

Name (describe) something you wouldn’t want to run into in a dark and deserted wood or alley.   Politicians are a given, so skip those please.  Thanks! 

IMG_20180722_132523.jpgI know this is going to sound daft, but I have a bit of a phobia of anything dead. (Which I had to overcome when I was working in palliative care and faced seeing a patient taking their last breaths. In fact, working in palliative care made me less afraid of humans who have died.)

Sead animals still freak me out. I am not afraid of them, but I physically recoil from dead animals. Any kind of live animal is fine – creepy crawlies, snakes, anything alive does not freak me out. But dead ones make me go weak. And don’t get me started on the stuffed animals people have as decorations in their home – ay karumba!

Which I sometimes wonder is part of the reason I decided to become vegetarian. I used to feel faint any time we went near a butchers – the smells of meat, either raw or cooking used to make me feel sick. As I have grown older I became more accustomed to the smell of meat, but I have never had the desire to eat it myself.

Recently when I was with Jack, there was something that looked half-eaten on our path. I had to take a massive detour because I couldn’t bear to even look at it. I think Jack thought I was a bit of a fruitcake. But…anyway. He humoured me.

Kristian Has Nominated Me For The Mystery Blogger Award

I have been nominated for THE MYSTERY BLOGGER AWARD by one of my favourite bloggers, wonderful Kristian, the creator of Tales from the mind of Kristian, as you can see from his post below:



What is the Mystery Blogger Award?

“Mystery Blogger Award” is an award for amazing bloggers with ingenious posts. Their blog not only captivates; it inspires and motivates. They are one of the best out there, and they deserve every recognition they get. This award is also for bloggers who find fun and inspiration in blogging; and they do it with so much love and passion. – Okoto Enigma


  • Put the award logo/image on your blog.
  • List the rules.
  • Mention the creator of the award and provide a link as well.
  • Tell your readers 3 things about yourself.
  • Answer the questions from the blogger that nominated you
  • Nominate 10-20 other bloggers.
  • Ask your nominees any 5 questions of your choice; with one weird or funny question.
  • Share a link to your best posts.

Three Things About Me

bloggging6I have recently written a long fictional project that has given me the opportunity to weave a lot of personal situations in my life and portray them through the lives of my fictional characters, my main protagonist was Annabelle Riley. Although it probably isn’t particularly worthy of anyone else’s attention, I have found the writing the story tremendously satisfying and rewarding.

Whenever I am distressed by what is going on in the world, I close my eyes and call to mind a vision that has comforted me since I was a child. That sounds a bit weird doesn’t it. I am not suggesting I was miraculously given a vision. It’s just something that I envision based on what I have read since I was five years old. It’s hard to describe in detail what I see and the feelings it stirs.


The only way I can describe it is universal peace. But it has at the center someone who loves us so dearly – our Creator. Around him trillions and trillions orbit. And there is peace. The feeling of peace is overwhelming. It is tremendously comforting. After I was raped and attacked…I used to have to call that vision to mind frequently. It was immensely powerful and calming. It sums up the hope I have, not just for me, but for everything living. I long for the entire universe to be a peace and to feel loved. It’s not something I want for myself alone, I want everyone to feel that sense of security and to know that there is nothing and nobody sinister who is going to disturb that peace. I’m a funny old thing aren’t I! But if you were to read my heart and peer into my dreams…that is what you find.

sighSomething amazing has happened to me recently. Somebody who I thought hated me, because of a situation that has caused me tremendous anguish for years, made contact with me. Since then, he and I have been spending a lot of time together. My heart has been doing somersaults. Anyone who has experienced that kind of rift with somebody they loved must be able to relate to how much you long for relief, for peace to be restored. It does feel like a miracle has occurred.

One Of My Best Posts

I have been looking back at some of the posts I have written in the past. ALthough dire to read, some of them were very important to me. I know that some who read them found it hard to understand. But I was trying to explain how I truly felt. But now I am so glad that I put my feelings down on record. I have written a lot down over the past six or seven years, ever since we met. It helps to reassure him. He had no idea what I was thinking and feeling.

Everyone Kept Saying That I Had To Let You Go… I Love You, You’re The Love Of My Life

Questions From Kristian

Where do you think all the things that are lost go to?

I don’t actually have all that much. What I do lose is the occasional sock, umbrellas (I leave them all over London when travelling around) and phone numbers that people give me on a scrap of paper.

lost1Well, funny enough I found a lot of the things I lost recently. I have been driving myself crazy looking for shoes and books and kitchen equipment ever since I came back from Australia. Well I found a box with a lot of those things in them. I packed a lot of my personal items away when I was going to Australia because there was a holiday maker here in my flat while I was away. When I came back I unpacked most of my personal items, but somehow I missed a box. Phew!

If we go forward in time far enough would we end up back at the beginning?

time passing.gifI expect not.

We have been able to chart the passing of time with the movements of earth in relation to the sun and moon and stars.

We are so young. Our concept of time is so basic. And we are often conscious of having a limited amount of time to accomplish what we think we need to.

I wonder if the way we measure time will change when we start to feel forever stretching out before us.

What is the greatest mystery that you would like to know the answer to?

I love geology, but it is a field where you read a lot of contradictory information. I feel safer with physics and maths, so long as it is not overly theoretical. In the field of geology, like a lot of history, different researchers look at evidence and give their interpretation of it. It would be wonderful to know accurately what happened.

upended.jpgI remember doing a tour of caves in Gibraltar. The tour guide explained that geologists feel that the rock has been turned upside down. They explained that some force ripped up the rock and upended it. They theorise that this would have allowed waters from the Atlantic to pour into the Mediterranean basin. The guide said they think it would have been one of the most spectacular waterfalls to have occured on Planet Earth.

Do you think we’ll ever find intelligent life in space?

Would you like the short answer or the long one???

angelI do believe that there are plenty of intelligent creatures who are not like us. We are made of matter. There are intelligent creatures who are not made of matter. Why do I say that? Well, our Creator was able to take vast amounts of energy and convert it into matter. He himself is unlikely to be made of matter if he has this kind of control over it.

Before our Creator formed the material universe, He made other creatures like Him, also not made of matter. They were present when He made the earth. They were present when He prepared it for habitation and introduced millions of creatures. They were present when He created the first two intelligent creatures made of matter.

makeIt seems unlikely that He created intelligent creatures made of matter on other planets. Why do I say that? Well, if there were other intelligent creatures made of matter, then I suspect the way our Creator dealt with the issues caused by Adam and Eve’s rebellion may have been different. But our Creator did not want to give up on His purpose. The history of mankind will provide a judicial precedent for any other intelligent creatures – our history on earth may well provide a testimony for the rest of intelligent creation throughout the material universe.

Do you think we’ll find it on earth?

“Intelligent life”? Is this a joke question? Or I am detecting a hint of cynicism?

The capacity we have as humans is remarkable.

brain universeFor years man’s brain has been likened to a computer, yet recent discoveries show that the comparison falls far short. “How does one begin to comprehend the functioning of an organ with somewhere in the neighborhood of 50 billion neurons with a million billion synapses (connections), and with an overall firing rate of perhaps 10 million billion times per second?” asked Dr. Richard M. Restak. His answer? “The performance of even the most advanced of the neural-network computers . . . has about one ten-thousandth the mental capacity of a housefly.” Consider, then, how much a computer fails to measure up to a human brain, which is so remarkably superior.

brainThe Encyclopædia Britannica states that man’s brain “is endowed with considerably more potential than is realizable in the course of one person’s lifetime.”⁠ It also has been stated that the human brain could take any load of learning and memory put on it now, and a billion times that! We use a tiny tiny fraction of our brain’s potential in a normal human lifetime.

quote9.jpgBut there is another remarkable capacity that all intelligent creatures need ongoing training and practice with: genuine unselfish love or kindness. We have an amazing capacity for capacity for genuine, disinterested, true altruism.  Only in humans is it practiced with an awareness of the cost, or sacrifice, that may be involved.

In other words…our potential is simply astronomical…both the capacity of our brains and the capacity of our figurative hearts…what we need is our Creator’s guidance to help reach our full potential! It’s hard to reach our potential with bruised and broken hearts. We are going to need patient loving care before we can run like horses!

Questions For My Nominees


My Nominees


It Makes So Much More Sense Now

This song holds some very personal memories! A very moving performance from a choir of volunteers for a charity fundraising show. My flatmates Marta and Suzie were in that choir. I was cheering them on. That song is very hard to sing!

fool of myself.jpgAnd…that night that Jack gave me a lift back from a party, and hardly said a word to me for the entire journey. It was excruciating! Finally he turned the radio on…and this show stopping tune came on. When we arrived back at our abode, he jumped out of the car, ran round to my side and opened the passenger door for me and took my hand, as I tried to get out of his tiny little sports car without making a fool of myself.

I was in shock. I could not understand back then whether he liked me or disliked me. It was all so intense! So much makes sense now! So much makes sense!