09 | Mar | 2019

I normally watch children’s film’s. I feel safer with them. They make me laugh and I enjoy them. Adult films are not something I enjoy (and I just mean any film that is not rated as suitable for a universal audience or perhaps those for parental guidence), there are very likely going to be scenes that I don’t enjoy. When I stop enjoying a film, I leave the room. My friends carry on watching it, but they know what I am like, so they don’t ask if I want them to pause the movie.

I start pottering around the kitchen, washing and drying dishes, folding up the tea-towels neatly, rearranging the cups and mugs in cupboards or see if my friends have any magazines lying around.

My friends told me they thought I would like the film “The English Patient”. I could tell there was some nice cinematography – but it was much too adult for me, right from the start. I felt the dread that comes over me when I feel uncomfortable in a situation and have an urge to escape. I could not sit and watch it, yet my curiosity was piqued and I did want to know what happened to the main characters.

Towards the end of the movie, my friends yelled, “Quick! Get in here!”

I rejoined my friends and watched as the plane carrying the two main characters crashed. He grabbed her from the pit she was sitting in. He carried her through the desert sands to a cave. They both realized he would have to go for help. She would have to stay in the cave alone waiting.

Tears started streaming down my face because now I understood the scenes right at the start of the movie. The aeroplane at the start which was on fire. Totally different scenario. That was after he had managed to get back to the cave.

I cried for weeks afterwards. This is why I cannot watch adult movies. It’s much safer to stick with cartoons. Whenever I see a plane like this it reminds me of the movie I didn’t watch – except for the first ten minutes and the last fifteen minutes.

I really wanted to write an adventure fiction…but I could not get my head past the plane and remembering the few minutes I saw from that from that film “The English Patient”.