A Love There Is No Cure For

I woke up this morning thinking “what are you doing Melody Finch?” Why on earth have I been on two dates with a man I don’t think I could ever fall in love with. There is nothing wrong with him. He is a nice man. But it is not going to happen.

I don’t want to lead him on. I need to be honest with him so I don’t feel like a complete fake.

I am already head over heels with someone who just happens to live on the opposite side of the planet. Sometimes it is incredibly liberating to be honest with yourself about how you feel, and not worry too much about what others want you to feel.

Maybe I will try to save more pennies for the trip to Australia fund! If I save all the money after my rent and food costs and phone bill is paid – I might make it to Adelaide within the next ten years!

Nothing like a great night’s sleep to help you gain some real clarity of thought!

 

15 thoughts on “A Love There Is No Cure For

        1. No no…don’t worry…
          ….what I meant is that is why I used Melody instead of Mel in my post! I gave my self a stern talking to and told myself to stop trying to give other people what they want to hear, but own up to my feelings –
          – which are that I am utterly smitten by the Goldfinch!!

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    1. I would appreciate his friendship – he seems like a very nice person.
      He has been rather forward about indicating he wants more than friendship. In fact he as much as said he was happy to enjoy a physical connection without all the communicating in between times.
      I just want to be honest with him and not give him any false expectations.

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        1. Maybe that is why. I had not thought of that, to be honest I was a bit offended when he said he is more than happy with just sex and no dating or talking in between times. I was ready to walk out of the restaurant where we had our second date.
          He is working this weekend and for the whole week to come, but if I do see him again, I think I do need to make it clear that what he suggested is completely unacceptable to me.
          So far Alice, I can see a lot of good qualities about him – he is a hard-working, humble man and he is kind and thoughtful in some ways. But his concept of a relationship is odd to me. He said he loves being a bachelor, but he also likes to have a woman in his life. It sounded to me like he was saying he likes to have his cake and eat it.
          I don’t think we are quite on the same page, but if he is just anxious and saying what he thinks men are supposed to say then maybe I need to be more patient and probe whether he is capable of what I consider a real relationship and not just a casual connection to gratify certain desires.

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