So what is happening this weekend that Caramel might be writing about at a later date?
The coffee-date with the friend of a friend – that is happening this weekend. By the time you read this post, it will already have happened. I am not really ready for it. I have been very emotional the past few days. Which is partly very natural because I work very long hours Wednesday, Thursday and Friday.
All sorts of unhelpful thoughts traipse through my mind at times about the future. I have felt safe here for the past two years. Things will change though. I have to be prepared that I may not have the comforts I do now.
But it is also my feelings about Goldfinch and my feelings about the little blueberry I am responsible for seven weeks after Goldfinch parted. I do feel a sense of guilt about going on a coffee-date, but I have been open with Goldfinch, and I am sure he is more than happy with me.
I don’t actually have any enthusiasm for coffee-dates with other men. But this man seems very lovely, and I am going to go along and hopefully just have a real good chatter. How open I will be about my situation, I don’t know yet, But I will have to at some point.
I will let myself settle a bit before I write a post about how the coffee-date went. But right now, before I go, I will admit, I am finding it hard to see anything past Goldfinch…and the little blueberry.
Hope it all went well ❤
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Thanks Tom – he and I got on quite well. We are arranging to meet again.
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*cheers you on from the sidelines* You go, girl! 😀
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Hope it all went well.
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It was alright. There will be a next time.
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That’s good. 👍
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Hoping all is well. I can hardly wait to read about it. 🤔😊
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I have mixed feelings about it. I will try and wait a bit before I write a post about it. He was very nice. It was just so weird. I kept on comparing him to Goldfinch in my head. His tastes in food, his interests, his manners and gestures and confidence levels and conversation style.
We will see…
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I love that you are going at your own pace. You’re a smart cookie! 😉
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I hope life is gradually getting better for you. You inspire me because you are able to self reflect. This is so important. I am curious if you have tried to meditate. I find it very helpful to calm my mind. I look forward to reading more of your articles.
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When I can I think on things and try to work things out and make connections. When I am unsettled it usually does help me to make time to be alone to do a bit of weeding or pruning in my mind.
Life is fine. I see a great deal more reasons to be very happy rather than being miserable about things that have caused me grief.
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