I woke up today to find a text message on my phone from Goldfinch. I was so tired and my head hurt, but I was so glad to see his name on my phone. It is a wonderful way to wake up.
His message indicated to me that he is happy. That’s really good isn’t it. Haven’t I always said I just want him to be happy and healthy. He is already feeling happier and healthier over in Australia. He is happier and healthier without me.
Then the sadness came. Such a lovely happy message from Goldfinch…and yet it became a blow to me…another reason for me to doubt he will ever come back. Another reason to doubt I will ever see him again.
I fully intended to be happy that he is happy. That’s what I want to be. But it hurts. Nothing hurts like no Goldfinch.
And there’s something else…I have to tell Goldfinch something. It’s going to be hard. I don’t know he is going to feel. It’s six weeks since he was here. I have news for him, and I don’t know how to tell him. It’s so clear he is happier and healthier there. I am going to have to think long and hard and find the right words.